The new me. .... It will all end in praise!

I talk about everything on Facebook except my WEIGHT. It's been my daily constant battle and  still continues to be. Like every battle I have fought in this my life time, I have won to some degree. However the WEIGHT battle continues to rage on without any glimpse of success.  The battle with my scale is lose 4 lbs and gain 6 lbs back.

This struggle is constant, I do not have a sweet tooth but I love rice. I remember growing up as a child in some degree of poverty,  I used to tell my younger siblings that when I get to heaven the first thing I would ask God for is Rice, stewed chicken and fried plantains.

I tell myself that I am happy the way I am, that's partially true. I love my life, I love my family however there are certain things about my body shape that I would love to change.

I was told constantly that my weight would prevent me from getting married and having children.  Thankfully, I got married and I have a princess.  However the marriage didn't come without the usual negative talk from friends and foes and family.

Accountability plays a very important role in successful relationships.  I have in the past being accountable to myself alone regarding my weight. I have done diets, exercised and all sorts for myself and by myself.

However,  today I owe it to myself and family to do things differently. Just as I vented and celebrated about various issues via this medium. I have decided that it's time for me to be open about this constant struggle that I see every day. Personal struggles are meant to be personal, however there is nothing personal about weight.  When you add everyone sees and vice versa.

I am happy but I could be happier. I am pursing a happier, healthier me... and it will all end in praise #itwillendinpraise